I'm still in here!

I'm not sure what the formula is, but for some reason I seem to climb into a hole within myself and stay there throughout my pregnancies. I'm not sure if this is some natural form of protecting my unborn child, or possibly just truly being exhausted. I'll just have to put it out there- I'm boring. I don't feel inspired to do much, to see much, to be out late, to "have fun" "let loose" etc. I'm just in some sort of pregnancy hibernation where I need to do quiet, calm things, have more of one-on-one time with friends and be peaceful. I'm still in here, and once the baby is born and things settle down I'll be back to my old self. Right now I feel defensive, sensitive, quiet and satisfied. I am truly happy to go to bed at 10:00. I feel a great sense of peace and satisfaction within myself right now, and it is almost like I need to be like this to maintain myself. My energy is low, but even as if begins to pick up I am not interested in the same things as usual. I don't miss going out, or drinking, or late nights at all. I'm sure I'll be up for those activities again after the baby comes but right now I am far from interested.

I apologize if I've become distant, seem uninterested, disconnected or quiet. I will be back before you know it...but until then please be patient and understanding. I still love to spend time with you, I just need you on a different energy level for the time being. I'm not pushing you away, I'm just going deeper into myself and in all truth it seems natural to me. Not as a negative occurance, different for sure, but definitely for my best interest.

I know I still owe everyone the effort and I promise that will never be abandoned!

I'm still in here, just a little quieter, a little more thoughtful, a little less enthusiastic and still loving you all very much.