I'm 10+4 today and having a rough one. I think I wore myself out yesterday with packing and moving stuff around. I am getting seriously sick of gagging and having to avoid smells. Poor Julia when I change her #2 diapers says, "sowwy mama". I feel terrible! Unfortunately her potty training has been on major detour and its not fair to her. I hope this passes soon!
I am craving fruits and veggies big time. Loving smoothies especially for nausea relief. I can't have anything greasy without paying for it, and I am now at the point of being repulsed by fast food, pizza, or anything of the sort. Food has been pretty plain lately, and I'm cool with that. The good news is I haven't put on any weight, the bad news is I look all gaunt and sickly...oh and puffy from water retention. So in other words, zombie like.
I have a slight bump now, if our life wasn't in boxes I would definitely post some pictures- next week hopefully! The bump looks like chub, but what can ya do?! I figure it won't take long to pop this time. I am having a lot of round ligament pains so I know things are growing in there.
I dreamt I had a baby girl and am now leaning more towards thinking were having a girl. So I'm just going to say, I really don't know! Those vivid pregnancy dreams throw me off my game haha.
I was on the road to thinking better days are not far off, until today :(
Oh well, the bad days are not as frequent, or as bad as they had been. Eyes on the prize!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
To find out or leave it as a surprise?
Right from the beginning of my pregnancy with Julia I told Jon I was going to find out the sex of the baby. He pleaded with me for it to be a surprise. I just couldn't "not know". I hate to say it, and truly its a human tendency, but I did secretly *hope* it was a girl...I think just because I was so young and I knew I could help a daughter grow up and relate to her throughout the years. I would have of course been just as happy and excited with a boy. At this point, knowing we want 3 or 4 kids I don't have much of a preference for the sex of this baby. What is done is done! He is already a he, or she is already a she. I just hope for a sweet, healthy baby. Like I said, I kind of have an intuition that its a boy, but I think that could be the fact that this pregnancy is very different from Julia's, but as they say- "every pregnancy is different". I just have a feeling, I guess it is inevitable that we will find out! When will we find out? That is the question.
I am really considering waiting until his/her birthday to find out. I know it is something that Jon has always wanted for the birth of his children, and I do feel like I overpowered him in the decision to find out with Julia. I think the end result is that this baby will be absolutely loved no matter what the sex, hair colour, eye colour, loud or quiet, big or small, and yes- even healthy or unhealthy. I think it would be a special moment to hear that, "Its a ______!" after all the work that my body will go through to bring this little person into the world. I think its nice to go in with a couple of names for a boy, a couple for a girl, and wait to meet the little one before naming him/her. It would be a different experience then having the baby named months before he/she arrives.
I keep going back and forth, because really it is very exciting to find out via ultrasound as well. It is so nice to prepare, as I recall all the pink and girly preparations, painting the room pink, picking out the crib bedding, the little pink outfits and all the accessories that come along too. The baby showers filled with excitement over a new little girl. If we are to have another little girl we will have everything we need! A little boy and we would have quite a few things- but not a single outfit or sleeper. Nothing blue, nothing "boy". Just gender-neutral from the things we already have. I know this is easy to fix soon after "he" came home, but it was really nice to have everything prepared so perfectly for our daughter. I don't like the idea of yellows, greens, whites, "neutrals" for either a boy OR a girl. These seem like silly thoughts but they are authentic to my mushy mind right now!
We have a good 10 weeks left before we really need to decide on this, but it does pop into my mind quite often, and I feel torn over it. Right now I am leaning towards waiting to find out until the birth. I could change my mind in 5 minutes though, so I won't post about this again until we make a decision!
I am really considering waiting until his/her birthday to find out. I know it is something that Jon has always wanted for the birth of his children, and I do feel like I overpowered him in the decision to find out with Julia. I think the end result is that this baby will be absolutely loved no matter what the sex, hair colour, eye colour, loud or quiet, big or small, and yes- even healthy or unhealthy. I think it would be a special moment to hear that, "Its a ______!" after all the work that my body will go through to bring this little person into the world. I think its nice to go in with a couple of names for a boy, a couple for a girl, and wait to meet the little one before naming him/her. It would be a different experience then having the baby named months before he/she arrives.
I keep going back and forth, because really it is very exciting to find out via ultrasound as well. It is so nice to prepare, as I recall all the pink and girly preparations, painting the room pink, picking out the crib bedding, the little pink outfits and all the accessories that come along too. The baby showers filled with excitement over a new little girl. If we are to have another little girl we will have everything we need! A little boy and we would have quite a few things- but not a single outfit or sleeper. Nothing blue, nothing "boy". Just gender-neutral from the things we already have. I know this is easy to fix soon after "he" came home, but it was really nice to have everything prepared so perfectly for our daughter. I don't like the idea of yellows, greens, whites, "neutrals" for either a boy OR a girl. These seem like silly thoughts but they are authentic to my mushy mind right now!
We have a good 10 weeks left before we really need to decide on this, but it does pop into my mind quite often, and I feel torn over it. Right now I am leaning towards waiting to find out until the birth. I could change my mind in 5 minutes though, so I won't post about this again until we make a decision!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Exhausted
9 weeks 3 days today and I'm feeling more exhausted than I can handle. I thought maybe I haven't been getting enough fresh air and exercise so went for a walk and barely made it back. I feel completely drained and in every way. I can only hope I am over the worst of it and I will have more energy by the end of the month. I have pretty much every symptom of pregnancy, only the fatigue is extreme- but all of them together makes it all seem exhausting and the anxiety is up there. By 13 weeks with Julia I was free of morning sickness, and didn't really have anything else to complain about, so I'm hoping this time around 12/13 weeks everything lets up. I can't even believe myself, I can have a 4 hour nap, wake up at 7 and be back in bed at 10:30 to sleep for the night.
I am very lucky to have my Dad in town to help with Julia and getting ready to move. I'm glad she is with him during the day so she can play and get outside with some good interaction. I feel like I am failing on that front no matter how hard I try.
I've discovered that no matter how bad the craving, oranges in the morning DO NOT help morning sickness, my once strong love for bbq sauce is absolutely out the window for the time being, sour candy is a lifesaver, and jolly ranchers for extra-nauseous times work pretty good. Pizza is BAD. Enough about food I'm getting nauseous.
I am looking forward to May 5th appointment, will be very close to the 12 week mark by then!
I am very lucky to have my Dad in town to help with Julia and getting ready to move. I'm glad she is with him during the day so she can play and get outside with some good interaction. I feel like I am failing on that front no matter how hard I try.
I've discovered that no matter how bad the craving, oranges in the morning DO NOT help morning sickness, my once strong love for bbq sauce is absolutely out the window for the time being, sour candy is a lifesaver, and jolly ranchers for extra-nauseous times work pretty good. Pizza is BAD. Enough about food I'm getting nauseous.
I am looking forward to May 5th appointment, will be very close to the 12 week mark by then!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Our little bean!
On Tuesday, April 14th we got our first peek at our baby. The little heartbeat was good and strong at 170 bpm, and it measured 1.93 cm. I was 8 weeks 3 days, and the due date will be Nov.21/2009.
It was such a beautiful thing to see the little heart beating away on the screen, and the technician who did the ultrasound for us was amazing. She was very sweet, and explained everything as she went along. Such a nice change from the usual at North Shore X-Ray!
We are really letting ourselves get excited now!
Monday, April 6, 2009
Thinkin Blue, Feeling Green
Well, things are very different this time around. I didn't realize how early this would be recognizable! I am thinking boy, but could just be having a different pregnancy than the first so far.
With Julia morning sickness was full fledged at 6 weeks- including throwing up 5-10 times a day and it was EVERY day. This time (7 weeks today if dating is correct) I definitely have nausea, but not nearly as badly as with Julia, haven't thrown up and it is on and off. I was pretty worried on Saturday when all symptoms disappeared as this never happened with Julia, and just having that general underlying fear of m/c. Well, did I ever get a bout of reassurance that same night, and then not so bad Sunday- AWFUL today. I am 1000 x more emotional this time around, and find myself ridiculously weepy and upset over strange things. I hate feeling vulnerable to commercials- who cries watching that crap?! Also lots of cramping this time. I was worried but my midwife assured me it is normal with second, third, etc pregnancies as stretching happens faster. I already have round ligament pains as well when sneezing or rolling over in bed. I have a feeling I'm not going to sleep well with this pregnancy...here's to hoping.
Jon has been more than amazing. He has been working, coming home to do lots of mommy-duty type jobs, daddy-duty, bed-duty and staying up later than usual with me trying to help with the nausea..not to mention the runs out to the grocery store when I feel like eating/drinking something. I love him so much, and he really does pull through when he's needed. Can't complain about the foot massages either. The nice thing is I am growing his child and that is a pretty good return of favour I would say!
Julia is still sensitive, she needs lots of hugs and cuddles which works out with my sore tummy. I hope she starts coming out of this little rut, lots of tears lately. Romney took her to the park today so I could get a little nap in. It worked out great and she napped for 4 hours when she got back. Hope she isn't getting sick!
I am really looking forward to my ultrasound next week. It will be nice to see a heartbeat, and I have a feeling that will ease most of the anxiety. Until then we are just keeping fingers crossed and glad there are strong signs- although they are quite uncomfortable.
With Julia morning sickness was full fledged at 6 weeks- including throwing up 5-10 times a day and it was EVERY day. This time (7 weeks today if dating is correct) I definitely have nausea, but not nearly as badly as with Julia, haven't thrown up and it is on and off. I was pretty worried on Saturday when all symptoms disappeared as this never happened with Julia, and just having that general underlying fear of m/c. Well, did I ever get a bout of reassurance that same night, and then not so bad Sunday- AWFUL today. I am 1000 x more emotional this time around, and find myself ridiculously weepy and upset over strange things. I hate feeling vulnerable to commercials- who cries watching that crap?! Also lots of cramping this time. I was worried but my midwife assured me it is normal with second, third, etc pregnancies as stretching happens faster. I already have round ligament pains as well when sneezing or rolling over in bed. I have a feeling I'm not going to sleep well with this pregnancy...here's to hoping.
Jon has been more than amazing. He has been working, coming home to do lots of mommy-duty type jobs, daddy-duty, bed-duty and staying up later than usual with me trying to help with the nausea..not to mention the runs out to the grocery store when I feel like eating/drinking something. I love him so much, and he really does pull through when he's needed. Can't complain about the foot massages either. The nice thing is I am growing his child and that is a pretty good return of favour I would say!
Julia is still sensitive, she needs lots of hugs and cuddles which works out with my sore tummy. I hope she starts coming out of this little rut, lots of tears lately. Romney took her to the park today so I could get a little nap in. It worked out great and she napped for 4 hours when she got back. Hope she isn't getting sick!
I am really looking forward to my ultrasound next week. It will be nice to see a heartbeat, and I have a feeling that will ease most of the anxiety. Until then we are just keeping fingers crossed and glad there are strong signs- although they are quite uncomfortable.
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